the little girl in me will always

love and accept you- faults and all

i, however was never enough

i accept that as well

true to grain that slips between fingers

the innocent crescent of a child’s lips

go unnoticed by those who profess

to protect her

done is done

she grows up and remembers how

you took her for granted in the days

when the sentient of her cherubous face

dwelled a bit closer to the ground

she saw her shadow some differently then

than she does now

the little girl- she lives still

within my core

but the outer shell, now punter to

greater realities of the human experience

She laughs now as she

sees you in your true light

and walks away free from sorrow

perhaps who i am has let you down

all you had was me

perfectly unperfect

you said it was all you needed

my love was good enough

but i was set up- the magnitude

of your unconscious plan to reroute

my very personality

the very thing that made me… Me

nearly splintered my subsistence beyond repair

i decided

i can no longer concern myself

with living up to standards that you

haven’t the stamina to live up to yourself

i no longer live in shame

apologetic for the crevices and cracks

that hinder perfection

but formulates the uniquely wondrous creature

who stands before you

isn’t it wonderful

the silence of peace resides where

the painful lexis of your voice

once dwelled

you are no longer in my head

and for that

God is good

i am whole

i am one

with her- the little girl once so anxious

to please those who pledged to protect her

from soulless wolves

i am love and acceptance of me

and

nothing…

nothing

could be better

-i was once in a relationship where who i was and all of the things that made me who i am was taken away by the person who claimed to love me. i found myself constantly changing and adjusting at the request of this person in order to make it work, while they did nothing to change the things they did to keep it from working. one day, i met someone who set a revelation in motion. he opened my eyes to the fact that i was in constant state of being manipulated and controlled. the day i realized this fact was a beautiful, magical day for me. i walked away from that toxic relationship and never looked back. Moments of Soul is a reflection of this time in my life when i grew up and introduced myself to the beauty of self-awareness. when i found my soul, i found undiscovered beauties within myself i never knew existed. that relationship taught me a lot: how to love and accept myself enough to never give another human being the power to tear me down . i have my wonderful soon-to-be husband to thank for opening my eyes to this person. i love you honey- so very, very much. that man truly loves and accepts me for exactly who i am. a girl couldn't ask for a better husband.~